So tomorrow will officially be the very last of normal school and honestly, it hasn't hit me yet. I guess because I believe I'll still see my friends on Exam Block week since some of us still has some other task to finish off. I know for a fact that I'd cry during crew. A few days ago, we had competed in this year's Remix. Unfortunately, we didn't place. It's really rare for a school to place in The Remix though so it was okay. Besides from that, I think my crew did better than last year. Honestly, this year's dance crew is more like a family than last year. I can sit and tell you reasons why I love this crew so much but it still wouldn't be enough. I had recently just finished a crew video that I had put together and I think everyone will cry once they watch it. It had every moment from the day we rehearsed to the night of our competition. House of Champions and The Remix. Dance is the ONLY thing that can help me forget everything. The only thing that can clear my mind. Make me feel like there isn't any shitload of crap weighing me down. If dance was a person, I'd marry it :P
Been keeping myself occupied for the last few days. I want to keep myself productive everyday to boost up my effort in focusing on anything. I don't want to be lazy or feel unmotivated. I want to have a routine and be able to stick to that routine til the day I become successful with my life goal. I've finally decided what I want to do in the future. This time, I really want to stick to it. I'm going to give up the pastry chef dream but still cook and bake as a hobby. I'm going to be a Dance Teacher. I've gave it a lot of thought and honestly, I couldn't imagine myself giving up dance. The love I have for dance, I want to show the younger generations. I want them to feel what I feel and love dance as much as I do. I want to focus on myself from now on. Nothing else. Not even my relationship because honestly, it's going nowhere.
