Tears of Joy

Because my sister was out yesterday and didn't come home and so was my mum, I was left home alone. I couldn't sleep. Of course there would be strange noises when you're alone. So I forced myself to stay up until my mum came home at 3:00 am. I slept at 4:00 because everyone knows, 3:00 am is ... *whispers* demon hour ~~ 

Anywho, I still managed to wake up at 11:00 am and from then on, my day started off with anime and food. Being sick for 3 days now and all I can do is lay in bed. If I got up to walk to the kitchen, I'd get a stomach ache and that shit kills. I don't know why but if I had to get food, I had to get food fast. 

So I just want to let you all know, I've watched Vampire Knight and Vampire Knight: Guilty twice now. I know. I.am.obsessed. The fact that I know nothing will happen between Zero and Yuuki, I still fantasies at least kiss when appropriate. I honestly thought that there will be more after Vampire Knight: Guilty because the manga version ends at 93 and the anime, both put together has only 13 episode and together, it's only 26. I really hope that there was more to it. 

Skipping through my day -though there wasn't much but anime- it finally hit 5:00 pm 

Henry was home! I Facebook messaged him "Welcome Home" even  though I wasn't there to hug him and kiss him. After replying, he said he was going to take a shower. Now because he was on his phone, his Facebook chat had put the icon of an iPhone and it shows when he was online. I was listening to Violin Dubstep -the one above-  I didn't realize how long he was going for a shower. The last time I looked at his chat, it said he was online 54 minutes ago. I was thinking "Wow, that's a long shower" but then I remembered that he works with fiber glass and those things are so tiny, they get onto your skin, makes you itchy and it's hard to wash off. Even water won't wash off most of it. Then I remembered at the same time that the reason why he takes so long was maybe because he went downstairs to eat and since it was around 5, that's when his sister comes and pick Lily up and then she'd stay til 6-6:30 ; so I figured they were all having a talk while eating. 

Eventually I messaged him "That's a long shower ...." ; That was when I heard the front door open. Early in the morning - well when I woke up- I did tell him to come visit me if he could because of how sick I was and I just wanted to see him. I was fine if he couldn't come over because of work and I understand. When I heard the front door, I thought it was my sister, but then I thought "Nah, can't be her" because she went out tonight and she packed her make up, and everything in a bag ; meaning she wasn't coming home tonight. So I thought it was my mum, checking if the doors were locked properly until when I looked at the door that my mum left open. Henry was came in, armful of McDonald's. He bought 2 Big Mac meals, large, 2 10% bigger Cabury Dairy Milk Chocolate, 1 Bueno, 1 large caramel frappe and 1 Butter Menthol, Lemon and Honey. I..was ...so..happy. I honestly just squealed, and I couldn't believe it. He surprised me when all those times that I hoped he would and expected him to, and he never did, this was when I had no hope for it because of a reason and when I didn't expect it,

I was fighting back the tears. I was smiling so much. He came onto the bed and I was telling him the first day of my sickness. Even though I already told him over Skype, I wanted to tell him in full detail. I'll tell you guys my what happened at the very bottom. After that, we were laughing so much because he was tickling me, making feel sensitive with every touch of his and that made me laugh til I coughed LOL. I made him laugh with my cold hands and tickled him when I could. And then we just cuddled. When we were cuddling, all that went through my mind was; 

"He's here..He's really here.
I can't believe that he's here, hugging me right now
He's here...He's here
He did this, all for me. He's really here.."

Of course, all that effort to hold back the tears was a failure, I let those tears out and they flowed out of my eyes like they were escaping. He was making jokes to make me happy and he told me "I want to always make you this happy" But then as a joke, I told him if he were to make me cry from happiness with every thing he did, even just by kissing me, I wouldn't have any tears left when he proposes to me one day. :L Of course, I wouldn't know if we'll be together for that long, but I really do feel as if it was going to happen and I WANT to spend my life with him by his side til we grow old together, shed grey hairs together, having our bodies in the same coffin together and be buried deep under ground together. 

After the tears, there was more laughing, more jokes, more smiles, more hugs, more kisses. We then went outside to watch tv but then... that's when my stomach ache kicked in. I couldn't get up, I couldn't even walk to the tv without stopping every 10 seconds. We watched the animation fixation and we were obviously both tired. 10:00 pm struck and he had to go home. I walked him out and told him I couldn't wait til Friday, because I was going to sleep over through Sunday and go home Sunday night. He said he couldn't wait either. At that moment when we were kissing, I was truly happy and I couldn't believe how happy I was. But of course, it was painful to say Goodbye. I just hope Thursday and Friday morning goes fast and when I'm with him, everything just slows down. He's sleeping on Skype right now and after this, it's bed time for me too since mum is home and I feel safe. 

Monday, I woke up feeling more tired than usual. I felt worn out and drained. But I thought that was normal. After eating ham and crackers, I ate my sisters Gobstoppers. They were tiny ones. There were the colours she didn't like so I ate them. Because I knew my period was coming soon, I was prepared. My sister told me to dye her hair and I did. When she was mixing, I felt my period so I went to put on a pad. While dying my sisters hair, she was sectioning her hair for me after I was done with the previous sections. About the second last section, I felt dizzy, I felt faint. But I thought it was just the smell of the dye. All of a sudden, I was too shaky, too tensed, too weak. So I told my sister to finish it herself and I went to the toilet. I unzipped my shorts but then my body just pushed itself to the ground and I was leaning over the toilet bowl. It was as if, someone knew and pushed me; preparing me. I lent over and felt a vomit coming up but nothing came out but thick siliva. I was shocked obviously because I thought I was pregnant but it was impossible since my period came. So after the forceful gags my body was making, I vomited out orange foam. It was the last colour I ate from the Gobstoppers, then I vomited out clear thick water that was not my siliva. I got up and went into bed with the biggest stomach ache and I could feel how weak I was, how faint my face was and how painful it was. My stomach and bladder felt like it was being stabbed and grinded. I eventually fell asleep and woke up 20-30 minutes later. I felt better but when I moved, my stomach ache would come and go, come and go. Earlier that day though, it was really hot and I wasn't feeling well in the first place and mum told me to hang the clothes in that heat. It was so hot, I didn't bother pegging the clothes, or even the undies and bras, I left it in the undies and bras in the basket so it could dry in there because it was that hot, I wanted to get inside asap. When vomiting up weird stuff, my throat was sore and so dry but couldn't be cleansed with water. At 5, it blacked out because of the storm and after waiting 2 hours for the power to come on the streets, mum called my aunt and we went to her house. I Facebooked Henry what happened and my throat was killing me. Went home at 9 and mum set candles. I fell asleep because it wasn't that hot, it was cool and the candle was flickering so gently that it made me fall asleep. My sister came home and she fell asleep too. Henry, 1800REVERSE me and when we were about to hang up, the power came back on and that was at 11. Then we Skyped and fell asleep. 

From that day on, my throat is still a bit sore, my body is still weak, my stomach still aches when I move around too much, and I've been coughing. 

Weird... 

But I knew I always Loved Wednesdays, and now I have another reason why to Love it even more <3