1st week of holidays is almost coming to an end and I haven't been doing much. I've been watching anime...A LOT of anime. Most of the big anime series I've been watching had gone on break. Their producers are planning to continue next year so now, I'm surviving on small, short anime series. I'm not picky but I'm just trying to look for them good love, romance ones, that hit me straight to the feels like Clannad/ Clannad After Story or Kaichou Maid Sama or Tonari No Kaibutsu-kun. There was one thing I did all week was rehearsals for crew. Man, it was so tiring! We haven't practiced so hard so I guess it's only normal that my body aches all over. Mostly my arms, because we spent all day learning more to the choreography, not one choreography but 2 or 3 others. But first, we went through what we learnt and cleaned up every move that needed to have more energy, more extention to it. I guess we didn't do any serious stretching but still, my arms, to my ribs, to my inner thighs and the core of my stomach is the most painful. It's so hard to get up. After trying to use my arms for things and the pain hits, I realize how much I relied on my arms LOL. I can't even stretch my arms up high without this pain that feels like I'm about to be torn.
I don't know. At times like this, I wish I was rich. Like super rich so I can spend most of my time shopping, catching up on trends or what not. I just want to dress up and go somewhere fun. It's hard to hang with the mains now. So much has changed after "she" came into the picture. I don't want to hate. That's the last thing I want to do but nowadays, it feels impossible to have us all together and just chill like old days. It seems that we can never all get together and catch up without "her" having some kind of drama going on in her life. It used to be chill nights til late but now it's chill nights that end at 9 or 10 p.m. Sometimes though...it'd be the 3 of them. It sometimes seem that they do things without inviting the rest of us. I'm not saying that we always have to be together but it's sad that whenever I wanted to chill or do something altogether, they'd have some kind of excuse to not be able to attend or they do attend but still, there's an excuse to why it has to end early. But when it comes to social media, there they are out with this person til late. I don't know how many times I've said I'd never invite them to anywhere I want to go but somehow, I end up suggesting again. It didn't even mattered to them if I told them my true feelings about all this because it'd be nothing but more excuses and comments to stick up for this person.
Thinking about it now actually gets me depressed because so much has changed. I feel like we're all distanced. And it doesn't help when we do catch up on weekends, it's the same thing over and over again and there's nothing to really catch up on. It's the same thing that you'd even know the answer when you ask, "How have you been nowadays?" and some reason, conversations hasn't changed as well. Even though they haven't changed, I can feel that everyone's growing tired of talking about the same thing. I don't know how this is going to keep up, but I know that some time soon, we'd just go from the bestest of friends to just "hi" and "bye" friends.
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