Speaking of 3-4 weeks left, next week is Remix. Remix is also a dance competition between schools but it more laid back. It gives out a more fun and friendly atmosphere rather than judgmental competitive aura. Crew has just finished the whole entire set. All we need to do now is polish, polish, polish. Honestly, it has hit me so many times that this will be my last ever chance to be with my crew family. Even though I've only been in this crew for 2 years, I feel like I've been with them forever. And even though I've been at Corinda for only 2 years, I feel like I've been there forever. The friends that I have? I am so grateful to them. When I was back in Woodcrest, I was stuck with 2 fat bitches that got jealous every time I'd hang with other groups, yet they talk behind my back when I'm with them. They'd think just because I don't sit with them, I hated them. I was honestly trapped in Woodcrest. But the thing is, I love Woodcrest. I loved our rules, our uniform policy but the people there were terrible. If only the friends I made at Corinda could be with me in Woodcrest. Anyways, back to Remix. Every time I think about the moments I'll have making my way to Southbank and meeting up with everyone. Think about the moment we'll be rehearsing all day. Think about us getting ready and then think about the feeling I'll have standing next to the stage, waiting for Corinda to be called on stage. I get excited and I can't believe that it's so soon. But then I think about after we're done. I think about what will happen from then. Then it hits me. It hits me hard that I will never see the people I see every rehearsal again. I won't have another crew that we'll just sit in a circle and have the funniest conversations, and deep conversation. Thinking about every single of my family in crew breaks my heart because I'll never have those moments with them again. And I love them to bits. No matter how much they annoy me sometimes, but I have the most funniest and most amazing times is when I'm with them. It breaks my heart that I won't be dancing as much from now on... I am literally crying right now.
Same goes with graduation. Soon, so very very soon, I'll graduate and share my last moments with my friends. I know I'll cry for sure on our last day together. I'm crying right now just thinking about it haha. But I love my friends. Despite them sometimes being annoying or frustrating. I couldn't ask for better friends. And I know that some people would say, "Why not just hang with them after high school?" or "You'll see them again cause you'll keep in touch and hang". Yeah, but it won't last forever. Eventually, we, as an individual, we'll have our own lives to think about. We'll meet new friends and our contact with our old friends will eventually stop. We'll all be going from the bestest friends in high school, to just, "hi/bye/how are you" friends once stepped into the real world. Apart of me doesn't want to leave high school, but the other part of me wants to because of obvious reasons. I don't want to do the school work and wake up early but I want to spend more time with my friends. I'm going to miss them so much. My girls, Lily, Quiny, Jennifer and Mikayla. I am so grateful for these girlies of mine. They're the bestest friends I could ever ask for :') And I'm going to miss them so so much, and it hurts to even think about how we'll never play cards at school, our intense games, our dance rehearsals, have classes together and just having the time of our lives together. It hurts to think about it but I need to face reality soon that our contact will be lost no matter how hard we try to keep in contact. I'm looking forward to growing up but at the same time, I just want to stay the way I am with the people I love.
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